It’s time to get personal, folks. For the past week, I have been experiencing random dizzy spells (for lack of a better word) and lightheadedness. Last Saturday, I felt so dizzy, I had to have my friend Elizabeth come over and sit with me, for fear that I might pass out and no one would know. Thursday at work, it got so bad that I had to excuse myself and go home at lunchtime. As I left in tears, I started to panic, thinking about going to the doctor and being poked and prodded to see what was wrong with me. You see, I have a pathological fear of needles. This has been going on ever since the first time I had to have blood drawn and almost passed out. By now, my fear is so great it’s not even funny to joke about or possible to be lighthearted about. As I sat at home, weighing the pros and cons of visiting my family physician, I started to hyperventilate and shake, getting tingly feelings in my arms and legs, a sense of panic and loss of control. However, my mom convinced me that I needed to visit the doctor, to make sure that I was okay.
Walking into the doctor’s office, I felt like passing out (the fear, again) thinking about possibly needing blood work. But as my doctor explained what I was experiencing and informed me that I would not, in fact, need blood work that day, my heart rate started slowing down and my stomach began to rest easy. Turns out that a lot of people have been experiencing a type of vertigo caused by allergens getting into the inner ear and blocking the cochlea, which controls your body’s balance. Not such a big deal after all. He wrote a prescription for an antihistamine and called it good.
Now, you would think this would be the end. For me, apparently not. I have spent the past two days wearing myself out blocking thoughts of needles and doctor visits. Sleep has been a welcome remedy, as it is much easier to check out than try to deal with the nausea and shaking. Trying to convince myself that needles are a helpful instrument and I will not, in fact, die from them, is no easy task. Let’s hope for some light at the end of the tunnel.